Conflict is My Life

I have a major problem with conflict. When I disagree with someone on an issue I take an unwavering stance and get into easily avoidable conflicts. Then again, even if I don't care about an issue I make a point to start arguments. I decided to defend a subject without thought, just because it is opposite the stance someone else holds. With this outlook on life it is very difficult to create and maintain friendships. Being agreeable does not come easy to me because I have always been taught to question others thoughts and beliefs. I wish I could just relax and let my guard down around people and be open to new thoughts and ideas. Not everything that is different is bad. I just wish I didn't act like an ass all the time.

Last Night

So yesterday I was considering going to this A Capella event in Alumni Hall at the HUB. It was part of Penn States Late Night program. It didn't start until 10 pm however, and I didn't really want to be up until 1 am. I also didn't have anyone to go with, and these kind of events are always more fun to attend with somebody, so I didn't end up going. Now the ironic thing is, though I didn't intend it, I actually stayed up until about 1 am, so I could have spent the time listening to music instead of sitting in my dorm room. But all was not totally wasted. I was at first considering how to decorate my room because I have been becoming increasingly depressed with its bland nature. I made the decision that I would like to paint the window into something a little more scenic, so I looked up what kind of paints the job would require. Now it's just a matter of finding a store that sells them and getting the funds to buy them. (I still have a $100 check that needs to be cashed, and not much cash left in my wallet.) Then I got sidetracked from that issue because I remembered that I promised Philip that once I had some pictures from the camera he let me borrow, that I would create a flickr page. So I spent the rest of my time setting up the account and adding a few pictures. You can see this page by clicking here.

The College Grind

So this school year started off pretty bad. Probably not any worse than last year, but not much better either. I didn't have to find new friends, which was a plus, but the homework load for the classes I'm taking seemed pretty intense. Then, less than two weeks into the semester my grandpa passed away. This upset me emotionally and it also threw me further off my hectic schedule. I was getting so far behind I thought I would never catch up. I worked pretty steadily for two weekends straight trying to catch up, and I finally felt like I had succeeded. This Thursday I had nothing pressing to get done and I did not feel the least bit guilty for taking the night off and watching a movie with Karen. (Which by the way, "Good Luck Chuck" is one of the worst films ever created.) However, I have fallen back into that place where I feel I am too far behind to catch up, so hopefully when I go back to studying I will feel like accomplishing a lot and get back to that relaxed feeling once again. But I don't count on it. I wish I was just a little bit less lazy, and then I wouldn't have to go on rants like this. I also wish my life was a little more exciting so my blog entries wouldn't be so boring, but maybe that's just asking for trouble.

Summer

So I'm sorry (to the two people who read this blog, especially Philip) that I haven't been writing this summer. It has been kind of busy. I had to help my dad catch up on all the stuff that had been forgotten because it was not of enough importance to maintain while I was gone. This consumed most of May. Then in June we did our hay. That was not as bad as sometimes because we did the majority in large square bales (3*4*6) that were stacked in the pole barn with tractors instead of hands. This was really nice. I did put in a few long days on the tractor though. The hay got a little wet, which sucked, but it stayed pretty green, so it wasn't a loss. We were done before my birthday, which was nice because too often we have to put in hay that day. I had a pretty nice birthday. Heather took my out to dinner the night before and we watched the Corry fireworks. Then on my birthday we all went to TJ's to play pool in the afternoon and my dad, mom, and I went to Dutch Treat for dinner. A plus was that my mom got out of the hospital on the 29th so she could come with us for all the fun. She seems to have made a full recovery from her stroke, though she still calls Melissa Marlissa more often than she used to. I think I basically wasted July, but maybe that was a good thing. Though I guess I do remember that at the beginning we sold all of our 7 puppies and Philip and Janelle were here for quite a while. Then I went to Canada last week and had a lot of fun. It took about two hours less to get home than it did to get up, which is kind of ironic because the border into the US is usually harder to cross than the one into Canada. I have been picking a lot of vegetables and fruit this summer and freezing it. I hope to eat healthier at college this coming year and I figured that the fruit smoothies that my aunt Dawn suggested my mom make would probably be good for me too. Thus, instead of having to buy a whole bunch of fresh fruit I will have most of what I need in my freezer. Well, that's a pretty good update I think.

College

Schreyer Honors College is the worst honors college in the nation.

Moving Out

The semester is almost over. As I write this I have a total of four classes left. The number of finals to take is even less, that being three. Two of these are on Monday and one is on Friday. Which brings me to a brilliant idea. I found someone who lives near Franklin, who has the same type of exam schedule, and who is going home on Monday. Somehow I got her to invite me to travel back with her. My mom will then hopefully pick me up in Franklin and we can drive back down Friday morning before my final. Then we could pack up as soon as I'm done with my final and be out of this crazy joint as soon as possible. I already have everything that isn't vitally important to survival packed up and ready to head out the door. The only thing that sucks is leaving my room mate, who will probably ball her eyes out when I leave. I guess I should start studying for those exams now because I determined I needed near perfect grades for any hope of even an A- in math or chem, but I don't think I'll worry about that too much.

Life Uncut

This week has been a real pain. Last weekend I had a blast visiting with my cousins and spending time with my family. That meant that I did not spend any time doing the piles of homework that I should have done. Instead I worked on assignments the day before they were due, which I know is what most college students do, and what I do a lot of times too. However, it would have been nice to get a little bit of a head start on some things because I had to write a paper worth 25% of my History grade and take a final that was worth 25% of my Chem lab grade. With those things out of the way I guess I can start worrying, and studying, for my finals. What really sucks is that I have my two hard finals back to back on Monday the 7th of May and then I don't have another until Friday. The worst part of it all is that I only need a 75% on the Friday final and I don't plan on studying that hard because it is an easy class anyways. I guess that means I have three days to party! My blog is pretty boring huh? Well, I guess I lead a pretty boring life. Sorry about that.