Carried Away

I am the type of person that looks for constant attention and approval. This is bad because, I tend to take getting this attention for myself to a level that really annoys all the people around me. For instance I sing songs to attract attention. While I was sitting with some people watching the homecoming parade I couldn't contain myself. I started kicking my feet, blowing on people, pretending to push people off the ledge we were sitting on, sticking out my tongue, singing "This is the song that never ends," etc. I can't seem to stop myself, I just have to be the center of attention. I hate it when I am left out of conversations too, which happens quite frequently. With all this immature behavior I'm not sure I'm even close to prepared for taking care of myself. I wish I could just fly away and never have to deal with human life. I mean, everyone's views and ideas are distorted and I don't know how to behave like a mature person around people who I don't find totally upstanding and exemplary people (these are the types of people that I look up to, admire, and respect; not acting like an idiot in their presence). I don't know for sure how to overcome this, but I think that working on removing this unnecessary behavior would be a good step forward in my maturity. I'm not saying that I will stop having fun, just maybe the stuff I do at the expense of other people and their thoughts and feelings. Normally I wouldn't really care about others, but I think this is just as much for myself as for them. I need to grow up and stop acting like a three year old child, although I'm not sure my social skills have ever surpassed this point.