Interesting Developments

So, I'm just going to ramble. As everyone knows I like to hear my own voice. I guess that means that I should really be saying all this stuff to myself out loud, but I'm not, I'm just typing away still, though I have thought about opening my mouth. Surprisingly, my mouth doesn't really want to open I guess it's lazy, or maybe it's just storing up energy so that it can spew forth at the next random person that comes across my path and gives me an opportunity to tell them my life story. That kind of happened last night in fact. I went to a scholarship banquet, in some sense to honor my scholarship donors, in another to get free food. That is always the highlight of a college student's life! Anyway, I met this man, I think his name was Rich. He was the rep for some industry I don't remember and he had given a scholarship with two reciepients. That's about as much as I learned from him, however. He on the other hand learned that I grew up on a dairy, my uncle is starting a cheese business, I love creamery ice cream, I bought a freezer for college and then couldn't keep it here, and that I got a flat tire on the way home from PSU once, along with many other things I'm sure. My mind can't keep track of all the things my mouth has to say you know. All of this on top of listening to a sermon on James that told me that I was supposed to talk once listen twice. Oh my, I'm really bad at making changes in my life. However, the other sermon I heard yesterday told me that I should just make changes, not excuses. Therefore, I'm not excusing this lapse, but rather bringing it to everyone's attention so that they can judge me critically and tell me to shut up and listen!
On another note, I think it is very unfortunate that I have posted so few blogs. I don't know why I don't seem to find the time. I often realize that others have this misfortune too however. They start with good intentions and write daily or weekly, but then it becomes monthly and then pitters to scattered, and I guess my brain went into weather mode because it wanted me to say, with a chance of cloudy.
And just on another note, I wanted to let everyone know that I've stopped watching television. You would think that this would increase the productive portion of my day exponentially, anyone who knows how much tv I watch that is. The problem is, this hasn't been the case. I find many new creative ways to procrastinate. Much of which, to my chagrin, has been listening to sermons. Oh what a way to waste time. Instead of going out and talking to people and being Jesus in their lives I sit in my room and listen to preachers. Not saying that what they have to say isn't relevant, but you've got to go put that into practice rather than sitting around listening to the next sermon. So, I've got to say that I'm rather upset with myself that others around me seem to be able to take on ever more daunting tasks while I do the minimum amount possible in order to get by. My parents taught me better that that. Although, I do know that in high school years the television was our connection to one another. We all sat watching a tv program together and considered ourselves to be a good family. How sad is that? I think that this has really developed in me a desire to get something out of the relationships I seem to have with television personalities rather than real people. I've never built myself a foundation of friends. I've been a loner, but I didn't really sense the loneliness because I had my tv relationships to fall back on. Now what I'm really trying to do is build a strong relationship with God so that I can go out and have genuine conversations with folks about their lives and really care. I mean, does it matter if you care what happens to Jim and Pam's relationship on The Office? Does knowing everything about their story really make you part of something real? Of course not, but on the other hand there are very real people out there that need real support. So I challenge myself, go out and meet someone strange, find out everything you can about them and report back next blog. Though, that gives me a lot of time, cause I decided when the next blog will be. But make it reasonable, at least in the next month or so. It shouldn't take longer than that to build up some courage. Should it???